I actually think I’ve been having this problem over the past few days, no fun. I’m working on it though. Relapse does not have to be permanent, tomorrow is a new day. :)
the truth is….
there are really only two things i think about anymore…
my most recent ex.
and death.
if you cant see through my fake smiles by now you either dont really know me. or you are blind. it seems like at this point she is the only thing in the world that matters and she made it very clear that its really over for good. my feelings for her will never stop growing stronger yet the rest of me, my thoughts, my will power… just gets weaker by the second. i just feel alone.
i dont know if this is what you’d call a cry for help. or if i just want or need attention. i dont know what i want or need other than her. i just dont know what to do and this was eating away at me. i cant really actually TALK about it… i just needed to get it out somehow.
It’s about getting to bed on time, and not staying out too late too often on the weekends.
It’s about starting to eat more than just freezer food; eating vegetables, proteins - a balanced diet, and eating well and regularly.
It’s about starting to set schedules so that you begin to brush your…
